I got the kids ready, dressed myself and loaded all six of us into the car. I dropped off four of them at school and took Handsome to Grandma Moss' house, so I could exercise at Exel Fitness. It's a boot camp style workout with stations with weights, and things to kick your butt like lunges. It hurt, but it was a good kind of hurt. There were a lot of ladies there, ready to start the new year off right. I knew Matt was wondering if I was in better spirits than Wednesday, and eventually he asked.
"How are you doing?"
"Good." and I managed a smile, because I really did feel better than the last time I saw him.
"I am just proud of you for being here!" he said
"Me too." I agreed.
At the end of the work out, Mat reminded us that we need to write down our "10 whys". He wants us to find our driving force behind trying to get into shape. He says, just wanting to loose 10 pounds isn't a strong enough passion to take you long term. So, I'm going to write mine.
1. I am a girl with big goals, dreams, and plans. In order to accomplish these things, I need to feel comfortable in my own skin.
2. I want to get to the point where I can help others do the same thing (change) whether it be in physical, mental, life goals, or spiritual health.
3. I am happier when I can focus on helping others, and when I feel depressed, I am not as effective. I focus way too much on myself when I am feeling self conscious...obviously :)
4. I need to be an example of health to my children. I used to worry that if I talked about health to my girls, I would give them a complex and cause more damage. Now I know that it is important to talk about health, and help them understand it isn't a weight. Health is a way of life. I want boundless energy now, and as I get older to play with them...and my grand kids...and my great grand kids!
5. I love feeling strong. Strong enough to water ski as long as I want (like my mom). Strong enough to hike for endless miles, and even be able to run through fields of grass at the very top when I am finished. Strong enough to run without feeling winded, and bike to Jackson Hole Wyoming.
I don't want to feel restricted in my adventures.
6. I have more patients with others when I am not eating myself alive with degrading comments all the time. My job as a mother is to build, to give, and love. If I love myself, I have an easier time loving others.
7. Nothing compares to walking around naked, and feeling totally uninhibited. Yes, I have been there.
8. I know if I can learn discipline with my health, it will roll over into the rest of my life.
9. I know that my stress levels will be affected in a good way by regular exercise and eating right. I love feeling calm and sleeping well at night, knowing I have put in a hard days work and will wake up better for it the next day.
10. I want to motivate other mothers to do the same thing. If they desire to share my journey and take it with me, it will make me happy knowing I am sharing my struggle for a reason.
Today I have eaten only lean meats, veggies, and lots of water.
I would love to hear how you are doing if you want to share! And in echoing my trainer Mat today, "You are stronger than you think. You can do amazing things if you don't talk yourself out of it."
I couldn't help be add, "and in life in general.. Women are so naturally hard on themselves.
WE ARE stronger than we believe.
WE NEED to stop being our own worst enemy.
Change your life, and the lives of others.
Have a great weekend! And, feel free to share your journey me one day at a time by posting your comments, your frustrations, and your achievements!