January 18, 2015

Pink Moss Returns... on My Mommy Style

A long time ago in a far off blog land, I had a personal blog named Pink-Moss.com.

I poured my heart and soul into it, and I loved it. I never had advertisements or giveaways or made money. I never even thought anyone would read it, but they did. A lot of people did. I shared really personal things in my life and learned a lot about who I was. I found my voice. And then after awhile, about five years, I felt like I wasn't growing anymore. I began to lose interest and started posting less regularly.

And then, Camille had a lovely idea to start a group blog. At first, I felt as though I was cheating on Pink Moss. Like I was leaving an old friend. For a YEAR I felt this way and tried to post on both blogs, but it was way too much. I was becoming more busy in my life, in general, and I couldn't get the time to post consistently on both. So I began writing less and less.... and I missed it. After awhile, I said goodbye to Pink Moss hoping that I would feel more at home pouring my heart out on MMS. I actually cried when I wrote my last post.

But here's the thing. I'm a story teller. I am not an amazing cook, like Melissa and I'm not an amazing DIY-er and Sponsored Post-er and whatever else Camille does really well.I'm just me. And that's okay, I'm not saying there is anything wrong with that, but I sometimes feel out of place, like I should not be telling stories.

I like story telling. I love life and I love talking about it. I love meeting new people and exploring new places. I have so many words in my head, they need to start pouring out in some way and if some of it doesn't come out through my fingers, it might start leaking out other places - and frankly, that scares me. I may not have the best title for SEO or a beautiful Pinterest image that gets pinned a billion times, but I will keep my sanity. Cause people, I can be crazy - ask my kids.

I began talking about this problem with one of my old Pink Moss reader friends, Kimberly Wyatt, and she suggested merging the two. Why hadn't I ever thought about that before? As we spoke, I explained how I felt writing on MMS. I told her that my grammar isn't perfect and that I'm intimidated to write quickly and straight from the heart, as my personal blog had been. After she read what I had to say, she convinced me that the reason she read Pink Moss was because it was so real and simple.

So, instead of giving up on something that I love, I'm going to try and have my Pink Moss home on My Mommy Style! (right on the menu bar) I hope it works well. Honestly, I'm curious to see if my passion for writing will begin to come back, when I can blog like I used to.

So with a little bit of nerves, and a lot of excitement, I officially announce that Pink Moss Blog has returned! Please comment if you have something to say about what I write. This is somewhat of an experiment to see if it's worth waking up at 5:30 to do. I am busy with my family, new job, non-profit work, and whatever else I find myself doing!

But I have so say, that I already feel a little bit more at home. There isn't a better way I could share "My Mommy Style" than by sharing like I did on Pink Moss.

Love,
Janae

(Posted on MyMommyStyle.com today. If you were previously a pink moss reader, I'd love to see you there!)

June 13, 2014

Goodbye, for now

My fingers feel heavy as I type this last blog post for Pink Moss.

I've been back and forth about my decision for over a year now.  If you look at my track record, I've only written - maybe - once a month for a year.  I have been spending so much time on MyMommyStyle.com, but still wanted to keep this blog separate.  In doing this, I just haven't written at all, because it's just too hard to keep up on both.  I feel like I am cheating on Pink Moss when I spend too much time on MMS and feel like I'm cheating MMS when I write good content for Pink Moss.

None of this may make sense to you.  I honestly don't even feel like I can write as well anymore, because I haven't been consistently writing my thoughts everyday like I used to on Pink Moss.  I love this blog like I love a friend.  It helped me to find my voice.  It helped develop the person I am today, in so many ways.  Writing is powerful...I can't explain how powerful it is.

I have had amazing opportunities because I persisted, and wrote, and shared.  I met people online that changed the direction of my life.  I have been more understood in my business and personal relationships, because they have read Pink Moss.  I could never delete it or erase my thoughts shared here.  They are a part of me.  I can easily see my growth as a person over the years, as I read back through the posts.  It will be a journal, of sorts, for my posterity.  And, as people read over at MMS and want to see where I came from before, it will be here to read.

I will be shifting my energies over to MyMommyStyle.com for good now.  I will post pictures of my family, stories, thoughts etc. over there.  I didn't want to combine the two for a long time, because I didn't see my stories as having any relevance to a site with lots of diy's, recipes, and other kinds of amazing information - because that's not the same kind of blog as I am.  Now, I realize that together we are stronger.  Between my sister Camille, my cousin Melissa, and other contributors - we produce a perfect combination of perspectives.  If you just feel like hearing me ramble, like I did here on pink moss, just click on "Meet Janae" at the top of the blog - but believe me, if you read through it all, you will find  some great content and people!

I believe that as I let go of some of the energy of holding onto Pink Moss, it will more fully let me delve into my REAL writing again.  I will let my full self live there.  I still have so much to say, and I've missed sharing.  I used to have thousands of readers everyday on Pink Moss, and I have slowly let them leave, and that's okay.  This blog was originally started for me, as it should be.  Some bloggers write for others.... meaning, I love that people want to read what I say, that makes me SO happy, but I have to be passionate about my message.  I have to want to write it, or when people read it, they will feel that I am not there because of my love for writing, but just to sell something. We have built MMS so that we do write paid blog posts sometimes, but it is not why we are there - and we only write about things we believe in.  And guess why I want to make money on the blog? It's so that I can give back.  I've been involved with non-profit work for a long time, and although donated hours are so important, SO is money.  People need food and things to live.  I am very passionate about giving back to communities, and money makes so many things possible, for good.  Money is a tool, used for good - or bad.  It doesn't define someone, unless they let it.

If you have something you'd like to say to me, you can write me at shmonae@gmail.com.  I'd love to hear from you, I always have.  Thank you for being part of my journey, you can't imagine what it's meant to me.

xoxo
Janae

And for my last picture posted here, I'd like to show you my first Grand baby, Emma.  I wrote about her over on MMS HERE.